So I know that I've had a farely light-hearted blog site. That is until now. I feel like posting something a little more serious today. It is long, beware.
A friend and myself were sitting out on the front deck this afternoon, basking, uninterupted, in the sun, as our lil' children slept. We've been having a series of conversations about words. Here's what we've been thinking:
There are 32 references in the back of my bible which relate to the word, "Word(s)". There is one verse which speaks about "words speaking life and death", however, I can't seem to find this verse in any of those 32 references (does anybody know where that verse is??). Anyway, to jump ahead a little I'll begin with an example:
Kev and I have experienced extreme difficulty financially - both before and during our 4 years of marriage. So many things have gone wrong at the exact wrong times. I remember often saying things (in frusteration, or just jokingly) like, "Just our luck" or "of course" or "should have seen it coming" or "why me?" or "we can never get ahead"... sometimes we'd find ourselves saying things previous to having experienced those unfortunate incidences such as, "with our luck" or "just wait, this will happen just as we're getting ahead"... sometimes we'd even bring God into the situation by saying things like, "why doesn't God provide?" and "it's just not mean to be"... the list goes on and I'm sure some of those are familiar to some/all of you.
So we began to take our situation very seriously, as we had had enough(!). Financial burdens were taking over our lives and making us miserable.
We began to pray daily about this, infact it was more like 10-50 times a day - whenever it popped into my mind anyway. We declared victory, blessing and favour over our lives and renounced the devils plans otherwise; we asked God to protect us and deliver us from this debt we unknowingly got into; we asked for wisdom to know how to handle our finances and speak to us in every area which needed addressing.
Soon we were given opportunities to speak with people who were knowledgeable in the area of $$. We also decided to tithe, regardless of our situation (which i MUST add, did not seem to make a difference at first or even soon thereafter, and we were very tempted to screw the whole idea as we continued to go into further debt and became more stressed, regardless of where our money did or didn't go). It was an all out war! But there was one aspect which was quite exciting about being at war. It was knowing that God had already won victory and even though we were feeling the utmost frusterated at this point, the air would clear and we would come out ontop. It seems that God gave me a burst of hope knowing that He was there inspite of what we felt and saw. What fun:)
In the "end" God gave Kevin favour at work with a raise or two (not huge or anything); he kept us healthy and able to work; he brought us an opportunity (and very large leap of faith!) to invest in a condo, which we sold 6 months later and cleared our debt completely; he gave us wisdom in purchasing a reliable vehicle; he showed us how to invest our money for Atalie's future as well as our own; and now he's given us the opportunity (and once again, VERY large leap of faith) to build a home in which we will continue to invest both our finances and lives in.
Now, after that length story I'll get to my point: Words do speak life and death.
I once belived that prayer should solve everything (it was a very long time ago I admit, but it's always a long developing process out of those ways of thinking). However, prayer is and isn't enough. It is a necessary part of our relationship with God, thus our lives on earth - but unless we act on God's voice in that conversation, it simply isn't enough. So when it comes to us listening to & obeying him, why do we choose to compromise his abilities by saying things which bring upon disaster in our lives? I considered today what kind of things I say in the span of a single day, and I was shocked! I have spoken about colds and flus as though they are simply a part of life which are to be delt with as we get them. Now realistically, we all know that viruses are carried physically, thus everyone is suseptible. But why would I invite that into my life by making verbal assumptions? And what about vehicles breaking down? Sure accidents happen which aren't always our fault, but why send out an invitation for the devil to tinker with my vehicle so that it breaks down the next week, or to bring along someone in my path who happens to be talking on a cellphone instead of watching where they're going? Then there's disease. They are not understood and have brought so much death and suffering that this topic seems unbearable to even bring to the surface - however I can't help but think of the fact that my Grandma died of cancer, and that i once heard cancer skips a generation... where does that leave me? Well, if I have a choice in the matter I'm going to do everything I can not to get it. That means speaking life and health over my life and renouncing any ties to disease which the devil may have tried to bring down the line of genetics; it also means living a healthy lifestyle and not expecting God to work miracles while we work so hard against them. Here's another example, a sort of silly example, but a good one:) I had alot of dental work done when I was younger, and I know full well the misery of sitting in that chair for hours, listening to the drill buzz in you ear (uuughck, makes me shutter!). So when the dentist told me, as a teenager, that I would probably need to have my wisdom teeth removed in a few years, I panicked. My panick lead me to pray harder than ever, praying for those stinkin teeth to grow in straight and for God to make plenty of room for them, with no hastles in the future whatsoever!! Currently, they've all come in and I've had no problems. Many have advised that I should still get them removed b/c of horror stories they've heard of the teeth growing into sinus cavities, etc etc... but I'm sticking to my choice of victory.
And that silly story brings together my thoughts: Why do we settle for average, or less, when we can take a risk of speaking blessing into our lives and have so much more?!
Okay well that's all. That's my sermon for the day:) or perhaps the year:) .. we'll see.